Oh, baby! I am on fire this week. I am lit up like a Christmas tree, and things are going great. All those doors in front of me the ones that only months ago seemed to be closed tight, locked and bared are beginning to open.
The small steps I took months ago to change my life are starting to blossom into amazing, beautiful flowers in my life.
Like this blog for example:
This blog started around five months ago because I wanted to be able to say that I had published some of my short stories. I had no freaking clue, that would lead to the massive explosion in creative energy and life-changing awesomeness that it has.
I swear it is nothing short of a miracle how publishing three short stories riddled with mistakes on a blog that no one read would lead to, writing 2 books, I am 200 pages into my 3rd.
My first book hit #1 on Amazon bestsellers list for a period of time. I have made 1000’s of connections with other writers and creators here in the blogging world and on Twitter and Facebook. I met one of my favorite Author’s Jen Sincero #1 Bestselling Author of You are A Badass and gave her a copy of my book.
And just yesterday I did another one of those little footstep things, that scared the hell out of me for a long time, but once I did it, I felt the immediate joy of taking the leap.
I started a Youtube channel where I will be working on a number of different things from practicing standup and motivational speaking to reading from my books and hopefully talking with other creators around the world. I am genuinely excited about the direction I am heading.
However, it is only possible because I make the decision every morning to seek humility and humbling my self rather than seeking out how I can be better than another person.
I am terrified of failing, I think I always will be, but I realize now that I can fail and look stupid or not be perfect and get back up and try again. I am no longer coming from a mindset of: “If I don’t do this thing perfectly I won’t do it.”
That is just so unrealistic; I have to be willing to stick my neck out there and say “hey look at me I am jumping,” if I am going to reach the goals I have for myself. My Fear of looking stupid or failing has kept me from so much joy in my life. It has kept me locked away in a prison of shame.
Well, no more. As long as I go after each day saying, “I don’t know that I will be the best at this or that it will even be any good. But, I do know that it is something I really want to do. So, I will do it anyway, and deal with the consequences of taking the lumps of learning and getting better.”
Because that is the only way I know to grow. I can not be a better writer if I don’t write. I can not be a better public speaker if I don’t speak in public. I can’t be really good at stand up comedy if I have never stood up and told jokes.
I talk about this a lot but, the act of doing the dang thing that you want to do regardless of who is watching or how uncomfortable it makes you, its so powerful in moving you closer to your dream.
Doing things like sitting down at my kitchen table and creating a blog with my three short stories on it and posting it for the world to see. At the time the blog to me was a mountain to move even if to others it seemed like small potatoes. I had no frame of reference and I didn’t have any clue what it would turn into. I know that I had dreams of my blog being a massive success and inspiring others, and it has to an extent, even if this blog only helps one person than it was worth it a million times over.
I don’t know which seed I plant will explode and grow with new life and incredible opportunities.
I do know that all the seeds I leave in my pockets will only collect lent and never blossom to be what they were meant to be.
Plant the seeds you are holding on to. Punch that fear in the Face and Plant that seed. Water every day, give it love and sunlight. Remember, to humble yourself in the process, because life will surely come along and try and humiliate me. But if I am already seeking humility the sting won’t linger, the blow won’t last, and I will be able to move forward into a beautiful garden of life.
I hope you go for it today if you are afraid of looking stupid watch my Youtube video and remember that I am willing to look silly and in that you will always have a friend in me.
Have a great day.