Frantically pacing your life can seem to be the only way to be successful. I have found myself thinking, “I wish there were more time in a day so I could cram all the things I wanted to do in my lifetime into this day.”
Even writing it, the notion seems ridiculous. I want to cram a life time of learning and experiences into every day. Seems exhausting.
It is exhausting, no wonder I have been so tired. Pacing myself has never been a particular strong suit of mine. I am really a Ricky Bobby type, I just wanna go fast.
I somehow always fall into the belief that the faster I get to point B, C, D, I will be happy.
The myth is- that happiness lies anywhere in front of me. Happiness is only in the moment with me, but if I’m not in the moment I miss the happiness.
Sometimes it isn’t just happiness I need in the moment. Sometimes, I am in need of a lesson.
In either instance the blessing or the lesson I must be present to receive. I can get mixed up a lot of times with my pace and if I am going in the right direction.
It happened like this for me through out my life, but especially yesterday.
I will start a project, do wonderful, amazing, inspired work for the first 70% of it, then as soon as I see some success or am asked to raise my level of quality, I seemingly lose interest.
Now, I learned yesterday that I don’t lose interest because I am no longer interested, but because the thing I have been doing asked more of me. It asked me to become better.
What? I am already the best.
Not true, I am always getting better or at least attempting to. But yesterday was one of those days where my pace had me revving my engine up against a brick wall of “Know How” in that I didn’t “Know How” to move forward.
In reality I did, I just was afraid to spend the time learning.
I have been doing a lot of videos for my YouTube channel and Editing video has become the new way I spend all of my day. I have never edited video before, created thumbnails, made fun animations or produced any kind of high quality video. It is something brand new and brand new usually equals scary and time consuming.
I didn’t know what I didn’t know, and that had me so stuck. Until I spoke with a friend and we talked about that first 70% and how it was time for me to learn and grow. So, I did what any self learner does I You Tubed how to edit videos.
After hours and hours of sitting in my own self-pity and unsure of how to go on, I learned something new. As soon as I applied the techniques I learned and I created an animation using the software I downloaded and applied it to one of my video’s I felt like a changed person.
Seriously the lights came back on. My day got brighter, but I had to slow down and assess where I was stuck. I had to ask my self questions.
I can get so caught up in going a certain speed in life that as soon as I run up against a wall that challenges me to grow on my path, instead of growing I change course so I can keep speeding along.
Well, I can not continue speeding through life, I want a good life and a good life requires growth and growth requires that we slow down sometimes and learn something new. It doesn’t hurt that slowing down also allows us to remember how far we have come and all the beauty all ready in our life.
So, If you are feeling stuck today slow down.
Ask yourself, “what can I learn in this current situation to help me continue on my chosen path?” Once you figure out what it is, YouTube that shit, ha ha. Or do what ever it is you have to do to learn it.
Because, it’s not a race and time takes time. Always has, always will. Rushing through life is the dumbest thing we can ever do. Because on the other side of life is death and dead people don’t get to smell roses.