I feel inspired to write, I let go of the job. I let go of the fear that I couldn’t do it on my own, or at least in a different way. I spend a lot of time saying I want to help people find joy in their lives. I want to help people be unlocked and free to do what their hearts desire and the whole time I was completely locked up in my own life. How in the world would I help anyone feel freedom and joy when I had no idea how to find it for myself?
So, here I am searching for that which brings me joy. I want to say the things that bring me joy are what brings most people joy, you know the stock answers, spending time with loved ones, going on adventures, my kids. But the reality is those things are a by product of spending time in my Joy. Those activities are complete when I am whole, when I, myself show up as the entire version of me and there is nothing outside of me that I need to do. It is the time with loved ones or experiencing new things that becomes the gift of me already living in my hearts truest joy.
So, where the hell is that joy? Where is that passion if it isn’t those things, and it isn’t becoming a billionaire entrepreneur? If it isn’t being massively famous or rich, or in super incredible shape.
If it’s not the big house and the fast cars.
If it’s not the respect of my fellows and the power of leadership.
If it’s not my bank account, or the service I bring to others.
Then what in the hell is it?
The short and sweet answer is it’s me.
It’s the inner infinite me.
It’s the me that knows no matter how the world sees me, I am enough.
It’s the me that knows, no matter how much money I have, I am wealthy.
It’s the me that knows, whether my kids love me or want to be with me, I am love.
It’s the me that knows, no matter the size, quality or cost of the place I call home, I am home.
It’s the me that knows, that no matter if people think I am worthless, I am worth, I am value.
My joy rest in me and says you are Love. You are Peace. You are Time. You are Wealth. You are Energy. You are Joy. You are Enough. You are Power. You are Respect. You are Health.
I do not have to look for what brings me joy. I am Joy. I do not have to fix my life. I am Life.
It is only when I believe all of these things exist some how outside of me that I lose myself. It is when I believe that I must help others find them selves that I can not find myself. I can easily mistake the promise of money and security for the source of my happiness and peace.
However, the truth remains, I am The Source. I am The Security. I am all that I have ever been searching for. I am everything that I will ever need. It is only in the fearful place of my mind that says, “you need to go and get that job, you need to go get that relationship, you need to go get that security.”
To be fooled any longer by fear is to deny the true gift I have to offer. I am the gift and SO ARE YOU?
It is never anywhere else but here with us, in us in this very moment, we are the gifts to the world and we only forget that when we chase that which is outside of us because of fear.
Amen. Your Joy is from within.