Each moment strung up, like shoes on a power line,
Hanging with innoncent composure
Dust filled gusts, sway the line.
Now is all we have,
In all we need we spare a dime
To the Innocent one’s hung up on time
Given no thought no passing mind
Are we more than shoes tied forever to a power line?
I have been debating my existence for quite a while now. Constantly in question over whether who I am, what I am doing, is all for the true purpose of my life.
Being in constant debate with oneself can lead to many neurotic tendencies in one’s life. “Is this the highest good? Should I do this instead of that? Is what I am doing now, going to put me in a better position in the future?”
Constantly questioning, means that I am never truly at peace with myself in the moment. I never truly trust that what I am doing is the Perfect thing to be doing.
And there is the operative word, Perfect. Because I somehow still exist in a world where being perfect is possible. This is one of my oldest and most difficult programs to unravel and rewrite. It keeps showing itself in my life over and over again. All I can think to do is call it out as the lie that it is.
I am not perfect, nor will I ever make the ideal choices, leading to the perfect life. It just won’t happen. What will happen is that I will live with Perfect forgiveness and Love at this moment, allowing it to be whatever the hell it wants to be.
How can I forgive and love perfectly, easily? I do this, by letting go of whatever is happening at this moment and accepting it as precisely what it is supposed to be, and trusting that it could be no other way. I say it is easy jokingly, but I know that it is possible.
I am not a fortune teller, so I can not predict future outcomes. I can only control me in the here and now, and to get to the here, and now I have to accept it, warts and all, as it is.
Lucky for me Lao Tzu comes through again, with wisdom on how to reach such a state of acceptance in chapter 28
Know the masculine, hold to the feminine
Be the watercourse of the world
Being the watercourse of the world
The eternal virtue does not depart
Return to the state of the infant
Know the white, hold to the black
Be the standard of the world
Being the standard of the world
The eternal virtue does not deviate
Return to the state of the boundless
Know the honor, hold to the humility
Be the valley of the world
Being the valley of the world
The eternal virtue shall be sufficient
Return to the state of plain wood
Plain wood splits, then becomes tools
The sages utilize them
And then become leaders
Thus the greater whole is undividedTTC 28 (Lin)
Lao Tzu sets out a few ways to bring ourselves to this space of accepting the Now.
1. Holding to the Feminine means holding to being receptive to what the world is doing, being open. The masculine is assertive, the feminine receptive
2. Return to the state of an infant- an infant is unknowing of any outcomes. They exist in the present, acting without contrived intent. Knowing the white means understand the fixed reality but hold to the black, which is an eternal reality, an infinite creative space.
3. Returning to the state of plain wood means dropping who we think we are and the usefulness we believe we hold and allowing a new type of usefulness to arise in us.
So to recap-
- Be open and receptive
- Let go of outcomes and what you think you know.
- Be willing to be transformed.
See, super simple, haha.