“In The Name” (With Audio) #writingcommunity #wakeup #mondaymorning

Lined up and mixed up.  Shot straight to disrupt. A piece of me that gives up.

Letting go with fist up.

Thirsted cups hung deep with waste, in my mind a ceaseless state.

Helping find my misplaced fate.

It waits for me upon this date

an eternal now holds my call wishing and wanting more… it all

The thing that holds me lost in time

binds me deep retched in frost.

fixed in space forever lost.

searching always for the thing I seek.

never know just how to speak

how to tell the ones I lost

It Was for them I paid the cost

delightful the will and prideful the spine

stood up straight but intertwined

mixed and separate, taken and whole

figuring that… I gave my soul.

I tore my heart and spent my time

I toiled in filth and ran till blind

I missed it all for fear that I’d see

beyond the space holding me

a space so full of weightless grace

a void filled deep with endless faith

a hole designed to create a thirst

that could never be quenched and only gets worse

no better than hate and disgusted with love

it was the box created… from above.

with windowless walls decorated with spice

to trick my nose and insense my eyes

illusioned I was at a mystical place

brought to my knees and sunk to my face

how can it be that all this is real

undeniable suffering… unending I feel.

Have you ever found yourself in this infernal place?

I call to the sky as if it were up

asking for penitence absolution, enough.

Give them hell or free them now,

Either way here is the towel.

Take it and go, I surrender the fight. I lost, I lose

isn’t that right?

I never had, I never gained never acquired or attained

it was all a game…

In The Name of Mine

no more suffering now

I am the Vine.