I am Grateful today, Immensely grateful.
For so many things, things that were not even a reality to me 11 months ago.
Spending time with my children, just cheering on my son as he plays little league baseball and the feeling of pride and joy I get from watching him. Remembering the days spent in our driveway with a little tree in the front yard that was growing these perfectly round little buds just right for picking and throwing.
I remember teaching this little 2-year-old human how to step and throw and how he loved it and would wind up his arm and his face and throw with all his might hoping to make it across the street.
Now 8 years later, he is pitching no-hitters and striking out every kid he faces. He had 9 strikeouts in 3 innings, incredible. I think back as he would run laps around the neighborhood with me in the early morning 2 miles as a 3-year-old jogging with me, he was sprinting the whole time and not getting tired, he just wanted to run with his dad. Now he is stealing bases and sliding into third like a pro baseball player and I think how the hell did we get here.
Time marches on.
I am so proud of my kids for the strength that they show. That life hasn’t been fair to them already so early on yet still they smile and play, love and laugh. They enjoy when I get to see them they hug me and hold me. I used to think I was holding them, I was wrong. For as much as I wish life could have been different for me and for them, I see that life is as its always been.
A march forward, a river flowing. It’s never up to me to stop the flow, swim back upstream and try and redirect. It’s up to me to enjoy the water, the sun, and realize that we will meet up at some point in the river and to enjoy the moments that we do have. Because moments are all there ever is our souls are fed by these moments and our lives are defined by them.
I cherish them more than ever now because now I see them for what they are. Golden moments traced out and laid down as beautiful entries into a beautiful life.