Depressed and Alone

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As a species, we spend our lives looking up for meaning and looking to the stars in wonder and question. Are we alone? Is this all there is? Am I all there is?

The question has bothered me for some time now, as I struggled with Depression and the feeling of being alone.

It’s strange that in a time of loneliness a person much more often than not looks outward rather than inward to find peace, to find solace.

We look all around us and see nothing in this time of despair. We believe ourselves to be the only ones dealing with such hurt and sadness that no other person would be able to understand.

Even if they could, would it really matter? Would it matter that someone else felt the way we did? Would it matter to have a point of connection in the darkness?

Is it more comfortable to walk the dark path alone or with another?

It is by shedding the pretense of difference of separate that I come to realize how not alone I am. By waking to the similarity in others, I allow my self to step onto a path full of life where others are walking as well.

The thought occurred to me this morning of “Are we alone in the Universe?” And it struck me as strange as I contemplated this idea.

Why ask if I am alone in the Universe if I can not even come to understand I am not alone on the planet that I live.

I am not alone in my own body; millions of forms of life exist within me entirely out of my control yet working towards my benefit.

I come to realize the Depression and Loneliness I felt was a conscious choice for me to keep my eyes closed to the reality of my life.

Where I am Even if there were not another single human on the planet, I would still not be alone.

The answer to are we alone in the Universe has always bothered me.

And I understand why now.

We are not alone in the body that we exist in, the planet that we live on, why would the Universe be any different.

It is a simple matter of perception. To know that the stars are made from the same elements of matter that constitutes our being should be proof enough.

I implore everyone who feels alone. Stop looking outward for solutions to your loneliness and depression. Begin to look within and realize you were never alone and you will never be alone.

That Depression that you feel will pass as long as you accept how loved you are from within right now and in each passing moment.

The Universe will cease to be an unexplainable question when you come to understand the Universe within.


Hope this made sense, I know it does to me.  That is why I wrote about it, haha


Published by Matthew Whiteside

I am a writer, a storyteller, a yarn-spinning freakazoid. My life is full of two things today, lessons and blessings. I write fiction mostly but I also love to write about my life and the things I go through on a daily basis. Writing it out inspires and motivates me and that's why I do it. Plus if it does that for me maybe it will for someone else too.

3 thoughts on “Depressed and Alone

  1. If you are going to look outward to feel less alone, do it through service to another. It is the best way to get out of “self”, and connect with others.

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  2. Interestingly, there is a strong potential for me to feel more alone at the computer keyboard than I do when I resemble the cover image, the human rapt in awe beneath a starry sky. In nature, there is no such thing as loneliness, only solitude. Under the stars, I am bathed in their glory, and my strongest desire is to learn (more of) their names. It is in such moments that I feel most connected to the vastness of creation, and least connected to the expectations, shames, and artificial cages of societal convention.

    Stargazing beats checking my “likes” on Twitter, yo.

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