Tao Te Ching Day 45: Greed

I see us looking out our windows. Peering longingly into the haunting world full of empty promises and desperate grasping of misshapen dreams. We were promised paradise yet we are finding dystopia. We look to the sky angrily as if it made us pour our souls down the abyss of more. We look gauntly aroundContinue reading “Tao Te Ching Day 45: Greed”

Tao Te Ching Day 44: A Need For Stillness

At the juncture between exhaustion and unending stress we can find a place that I like to call, “who the hell cares.” In this place we get out of the worry game and move instead to the place of let’s see what happens. I read the headlines to only two headlines in the past 4Continue reading “Tao Te Ching Day 44: A Need For Stillness”

Tao Te Ching Day 28: What We Focus On

“Tao produces one, One produces two, Two produces three, Three produce myriad things” TTC 42 (Lin) The first few lines of this chapter are in a way speaking of cellular mitosis. Where a single cell splits and becomes two, and two becomes three, and you get the point. All life begins with the death ofContinue reading “Tao Te Ching Day 28: What We Focus On”

Tao Te Ching Day 23: Fear

Banish Learning, no more grief. Between Yes and No, how much difference? TTC- Chp. 20 (A&L) The illusions of fear seem to always be present, or rather fear seems to always be presenting itself. I have been doing a deep dive into the heart of my fear. Every time fear arises, I sit with it.Continue reading “Tao Te Ching Day 23: Fear”

Dying to Live

My mind is on fire with thoughts. The past 2 days I have woken up and it’s felt like a fire drill in my head, ideas running crazy. It’s felt intense and also exciting because there is a ton of energy in that fire drill. It can be a scary place for anyone who suffersContinue reading “Dying to Live”

Some One is Trying To Kill Me!!! #FridayFeeling #writingcommunity

Let me tell you about my anxiety, it’s a fucking pain in the ass and also my best chance for survival.  It’s like to fat kids on a seesaw, I need to put them both on a diet or the seesaw will break. One year ago, I was so terrified to leave my apartment thatContinue reading “Some One is Trying To Kill Me!!! #FridayFeeling #writingcommunity”

How Did I Get Here?

Some Mornings I wake up with a sense of dread, of terrified forboding that some unseen boogeyman is waiting for me just around the corner. That the idea of my security and my survival is in immediate peril. When I wake up like this It’s hard to shake, like trying to run from your shadowContinue reading “How Did I Get Here?”