Some Mornings I wake up with a sense of dread, of terrified forboding that some unseen boogeyman is waiting for me just around the corner. That the idea of my security and my survival is in immediate peril. When I wake up like this It’s hard to shake, like trying to run from your shadowContinue reading “How Did I Get Here?”
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Think The “F” Word Very Loudly and Read.
I don’t know what to do sometimes or how to help. I feel worthless by how incapable I am of saving another from their own personal damnation. I get terrified that my inadequacy with words or money or resources is in effect killing people. If only I had more money, I could feed these people.Continue reading “Think The “F” Word Very Loudly and Read.”
When Did I Become Such A Victim?
This may not be popular or whatever, but it is what I understand for my life, so here it goes. I spent a long time, for me at least, pointing my finger at other people. It was my dad’s fault I was an alcoholic because he left when I was young and he, himself wasContinue reading “When Did I Become Such A Victim?”
When Did I become an Expert?
To say that I know something implies a full understanding of a subject. It is better for me to say that I experienced something and found it accurate in my life. I can not close myself to the ideas of people, places or things because doing so will limit my ability to experience them. IfContinue reading “When Did I become an Expert?”
How I Quit Drinking Alcohol!
I am afraid to write this, afraid to talk about it openly because of fear of what people might think. Nah, I’m just kidding. I could care less about what people think of me. I care more about potentially helping someone who may be suffering. Because that is what this is all about. My life,Continue reading “How I Quit Drinking Alcohol!”
Slowing down: For the win.
Frantically pacing your life can seem to be the only way to be successful. I have found myself thinking, “I wish there were more time in a day so I could cram all the things I wanted to do in my lifetime into this day.” Even writing it, the notion seems ridiculous. I want toContinue reading “Slowing down: For the win.”
Tend the Seeds: My Harvest
Meh, transitions in life can leave me feeling depressed. No matter how or when they show up, life changes can be disorienting. I have noticed that my brain will try and trick me from recognizing a change is taking place. The wacky brain delusions happen quite a bit as if my mind is doing everythingContinue reading “Tend the Seeds: My Harvest”
How To Do ANYTHING: A dummy’s guide to be amazing.
I love the idea of “How To” it is such a wonderful concept — a guide on how to do stuff. Instruction manuals for life are being produced online at an incredible rate and if you didn’t know how to do something before you are sure as hell have no excuse not to know howContinue reading “How To Do ANYTHING: A dummy’s guide to be amazing.”
I Am: How To be…Anything- The Meaning of Life
I wrote a post an hour ago about 5 steps to the discovering the meaning of your life. It was inspired and full of great advice. It made me feel a certain way like oh yeah that is it. That is how you do it. I felt like it was being written through me byContinue reading “I Am: How To be…Anything- The Meaning of Life”
Spinning Out of Control: How to Stop the Madness. Heavily edited;)
I am so happy I have a place now. A place for my thoughts and ideas, for my stresses and concerns, a place for my problems my solutions. This morning, my mind was filled with more thoughts and ambition than I knew what to do with. It happens sometimes, that I get to working onContinue reading “Spinning Out of Control: How to Stop the Madness. Heavily edited;)”
Seeking Purpose Today 