Alcoholism Recovery, Motivation, and Inspiration – Page 7

Are You Willing To Suck?

Hello there, my name is Matt. I am in a state of upheaval and chaotic mental insanity. What’s your name? Last night after all my praying an meditating, my meetings and writing. After all the talking and work I had done spiritually, I wanted to lose my mind. I wanted it to just poof andContinue reading “Are You Willing To Suck?”

Stupid Ideas

Success and failure, when did they become so mind altering? In the same vein, when did figuring out who I am, become so difficult? The complexities with which I presume to see the world are really just egotistical arrogance based in believing my sensory perception to be the all knowing all seeing Eye. I seeContinue reading “Stupid Ideas”

Does Your Connection Suck?

I am reminded again and again of something on my daily walk through life. The darkness and disconnect is all a symptom of my action. On days that I feel lonely and apart from the world its usually not because I am not surrounded by people. It is like I am in a dark roomContinue reading “Does Your Connection Suck?”

How Did I Get Here?

Some Mornings I wake up with a sense of dread, of terrified forboding that some unseen boogeyman is waiting for me just around the corner. That the idea of my security and my survival is in immediate peril. When I wake up like this It’s hard to shake, like trying to run from your shadowContinue reading “How Did I Get Here?”

Think The “F” Word Very Loudly and Read.

I don’t know what to do sometimes or how to help. I feel worthless by how incapable I am of saving another from their own personal damnation. I get terrified that my inadequacy with words or money or resources is in effect killing people. If only I had more money, I could feed these people.Continue reading “Think The “F” Word Very Loudly and Read.”

Stop Living in The Freaking Dumpster!

I have days of good and bad, up and down. Not everything for me is sunshine and rainbows. Although, I have been accused recently of being a liar for always being positive, which I find funny. I see it like this; sure I am a happy guy that laughs and jokes a lot. I doContinue reading “Stop Living in The Freaking Dumpster!”

When Did I Become Such A Victim?

This may not be popular or whatever, but it is what I understand for my life, so here it goes. I spent a long time, for me at least, pointing my finger at other people. It was my dad’s fault I was an alcoholic because he left when I was young and he, himself wasContinue reading “When Did I Become Such A Victim?”

When Did Fun Become So Elusive?

Are you having Fun? I know I am. WEEEEBBBBLEEE Deeeeee Boooooppp!! I have not gone crazy, I don’t think. Look, fun used to be so easy. Remember? I want to reignite that spirit of fun and enthusiasm for life that I had when I was a child. When fun was free. Fun is up toContinue reading “When Did Fun Become So Elusive?”

When Did I become an Expert?

To say that I know something implies a full understanding of a subject. It is better for me to say that I experienced something and found it accurate in my life. I can not close myself to the ideas of people, places or things because doing so will limit my ability to experience them. IfContinue reading “When Did I become an Expert?”

Interview w/Kent Wayne a.k.a Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha. Part 1

Podcast Available This Won’t Work- Podcast Music: https://www.bensound.com/ Kent Wayne Author of the Echo Vol. 1-4 joins me on the podcast and my God was it cool. We talk everything from writing to human evolution, to drugs and alcohol and what it means to truly be alive. Dig in to part 1 of thisContinue reading “Interview w/Kent Wayne a.k.a Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha. Part 1”