Author Archives: Matthew Whiteside

Are You Willing To Suck?

Hello there, my name is Matt.  I am in a state of upheaval and chaotic mental insanity. What’s your name? Last night after all my praying an meditating, my meetings and writing. After all the talking and work I had done spiritually, I wanted to lose my mind.  I wanted it to just poof andContinue reading “Are You Willing To Suck?”

Stupid Ideas

Success and failure, when did they become so mind altering?  In the same vein, when did figuring out who I am, become so difficult? The complexities with which I presume to see the world are really just egotistical arrogance based in believing my sensory perception to be the all knowing all seeing Eye. I seeContinue reading “Stupid Ideas”

Does Your Connection Suck?

I am reminded again and again of something on my daily walk through life.  The darkness and disconnect is all a symptom of my action.  On days that I feel lonely and apart from the world its usually not because I am not surrounded by people. It is like I am in a dark roomContinue reading “Does Your Connection Suck?”

The Absolute Best Way to Get in Shape! Guaranteed!

I have lost 100lbs twice in my life. I have lost over 40lbs five separate times. I have gone from being extremely unhealthy out of shape and sick to healthy, happy and successful more times than I can remember. I learned this a long time ago and it is something that works every single timeContinue reading “The Absolute Best Way to Get in Shape! Guaranteed!”

I had to write something!

The creation of the Word is in many ways the creation of the entire universe. How do I get meaning into a physical form? It must be able to convey something that I can not.  Yet be understood by those able to hear it or read it. Creation is something we do everyday whether withContinue reading “I had to write something!”

How Did I Get Here?

Some Mornings I wake up with a sense of dread, of terrified forboding that some unseen boogeyman is waiting for me just around the corner. That the idea of my security and my survival is in immediate peril. When I wake up like this It’s hard to shake, like trying to run from your shadowContinue reading “How Did I Get Here?”

Think The “F” Word Very Loudly and Read.

I don’t know what to do sometimes or how to help. I feel worthless by how incapable I am of saving another from their own personal damnation. I get terrified that my inadequacy with words or money or resources is in effect killing people. If only I had more money, I could feed these people.Continue reading “Think The “F” Word Very Loudly and Read.”

Stop Living in The Freaking Dumpster!

I have days of good and bad, up and down. Not everything for me is sunshine and rainbows. Although, I have been accused recently of being a liar for always being positive, which I find funny. I see it like this; sure I am a happy guy that laughs and jokes a lot. I doContinue reading “Stop Living in The Freaking Dumpster!”

Part 2 Interview w/ Kent Wayne A.K.A Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha Author of Echo Vol.1-4

  Available on Podcast Here at “This Won’t Work” Podcast Kent Wayne Author of the Echo Vol. 1-4 joins me on the podcast and my God was it cool. We talk everything from writing to human evolution, to drugs and alcohol and what it means to truly be alive. Dig in to part 2 ofContinue reading “Part 2 Interview w/ Kent Wayne A.K.A Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha Author of Echo Vol.1-4”